I had a word for this summer, red: risk, energy and determination. That’s what I wanted my summer to be like. And I’d say I succeeded. It was a great three months off. But all good things must come to an end — with one last hurrah! Over my last weekend of summer, I said farewell to freedom with a wonderful evening: amazing chocolates, downtown city market, Asian food, the movie Warm Bodies (which, by the way, I liked quite a lot. Several similarites between the zombie and homeschoolers…), bible study, talks on rooftops, dancing, and truly incredible people.

But now school has started. Hellooo. Yeah, I’m really thrilled about chemistry. See, I love learning — when I’m not forced to. I actually was laughing while reading the introduction to chemistry because the author was trying to make it sound like something truly thrilling. Ha. Anyway, maybe I’m just too cynical. I like my U.S. Government book. It starts off by saying that we’re not following the constitution anymore and we’re not doing what government is supposed to be doing. My kind of book.

I’m having a love/hate relationship with starting this semester. I love it because I’m going to learn, and I hate it because I’ll have to work. I love it because I’ll be job searching this semester, and I hate it because I’ll have to job search. I love it because I’m teaching a swing dancing class, and I hate it because I have to teach a class. I love it because I’m going to look into careers, and I hate it because I have to look into careers.

One day at a time, Sammi. One day at a time. I’ve heard “wherever you are, be fully there”.  I like that. I need that. Live in the moment. Enjoy the journey. Yeah, yeah, think about the destination, but don’t blow by the whole process.

I need to just enjoy things. A good cup of tea. Some vinyl. Dancing for a bit. Songs. The ukulele. Fresh air. Apple doughnuts. Tights with shorts and XL cardigans.

Help me to see clearly/I want to be, to be free/Maybe all I have to do/Is let it go/ let Him take control/Let me be at peace with myself ~ The Vespers, Happy Lessons