I’ve done about as much work in the past eight weeks as I did all of last semester. Just one credit more, and it’s killing me. Well, there are other factors — such as tougher teachers, more projects, etc. — but the fact remains I’m swamped. I have no weekends. For a while I wasn’t sleeping, either. Bad, bad combination.
It’s times like these, when I feel weak, powerless, and pointless, that it’s most important to remain strong, powerful, and productive. “One day at time” is a cliche, but nonetheless a true statement. Even more importantly, however, is to keep prioritizing what really matters. It won’t matter if I get a B instead of an A in the long run, but my relationship with God will. Right now He needs to be my focus. I actually got up 15 minutes earlier one day to have devotions before school. I was sure I wouldn’t have enough time to get my morning routine done, but I was left with 30 minutes to spare somehow even with the addition of Bible reading and prayer. Amazing how God works…
Also, I’ve learned asking for help isn’t a bad thing. We were made for community after all. We come together to strengthen, encourage, and share experiences with each other. I can’t do this alone, and that’s okay. That doesn’t make me less of a person. In fact, it almost makes me more of a person. At the least, I’m a happier one. Being independent is over-emphasized in culture. Of course, have opinions, stay true to your beliefs, don’t overly depend on other people, but doing things alone is actually pretty dumb.
Through all the piles of schoolwork, I have had a very little time to get away and be social… or at least study with people.